Anxious...

I don't feel safe in my own skin,
The crawling, the buzzing of force-fed sin,
Do you remember when the clouds still held their rain,
Before they injected me with suffering and shame?

And every time I fall asleep, I try to stop the shakes,
My body falls to tremors that were invented by my brain.
My heart's violently pounding and there's nothing I can take,
To keep myself from lonely shivering in the rain.

I don't feel safe being a part of the game,
The rising and falling of my chemical waves,
Have you ever felt the current building toward an end?
It breaks and then it's over, my body's been rent.

And every time I fall asleep, I only see your face,
The frustration I feel every day is my own disgrace.
I pretend that there's a body sleeping next to me,
I dream of being tossed into the middle of the sea.